First off let me just state that I am entirely new to blogs and how they're supposed to be done! So forgive me if i'm doing it wrong.
In the beginning... Well what is there really to say but the fact that I sort of knew what I liked to some degree and play at times of different assortments, to just naturally was drawn to certain things. As for being vocal about it, Hahaha that's entirely comical beyond belief. I was the .... errr still am the type of girl that will walk into a sex store and my head naturally bows down and I more trail at a slow pace on my own or if I am with people then I follow behind them primarily looking at my feet and not speaking very loud or if I did it primarily was mumbled and uncertain. The difference is I didn't have the confidence I have now to own up to some of my naughty little desires, or confess to what turns me on or gets me going for that matter.
Live?... Well without the shackles on I wouldn't really move or even talk besides the polite "welcome, how are you?' that a great majority if not all of you are all to familiar with from just about every cam model. When shackled it was like a whole another world then! For then I was in my play and safe space; where I was in control and had final say. It probably was the power that came from being in that position that helped me warm up the most.
One thing I think that probably surprised me the most what items it was that I was willing to do for what donation amounts. You will notice that I do try and refrain from "tokens", "tip", "pay" or assortments like that where a business transaction would more occur. I'm here for "business" but i'm not here for business or even business transaction. I am literally here to do what ever the hell I want and I am going to enjoy it an not have it feel like work! Still to this day that is exactly what I do, do with of course the in-centralization, or donations to help encourage more things for me to do, or stay on longer, or more make it about you. As long as you are having fun, then there is a really good chance that I too will be enjoying myself but if its not beneficial to both of us then that's were I start to pipe up and say something.
One thing I never understood what a darling could do would be:Â
`~coming into the room and just TROLLING, blatantly making it obvious you're just sitting there hand on your cock playing with yourself here for a free show and not helping to add to the room. OR
~coming into the room not say anything and then just leave as soon as you're greeted, or right as you get greeted....
it really is kinda creepy, not only that it is a bit on the extremely rude side of things. If I am being curtious to be kind and polite to you I would love it if the same was returned. Not only that it kinda is a bit hurtful cause one easily can take it as if you don't view them good enough or appealing to you that they're jut ugly or "disgusting" and last thing is a model feeling that way. Always has bothered me when people decide to do this .
One thing I know I was okay being more verbal about at the beginning that I am a bit more shy about now is wanting to have a plug in almost all the time, and it was featured in the donation menu for the longest time. Never really sure why it was taken out either just happened one day. The other and is still a prime featured item is Spankings!!! God did I ever and still really do enjoy being spanked. Doesn't matter if it was Pussy Spankings, Regular Spanking, Paddled Spanking, Big Paddle Spanking, or a lashing with a cane for a spank... They all are very much thoroughly enjoyed and at times I can be strongly opinionated and think that"this little brat needs her ass beat, just a spanking might be enough" though the reality of it one is never enough.
In the beginning... Well what is there really to say but the fact that I sort of knew what I liked to some degree and play at times of different assortments, to just naturally was drawn to certain things. As for being vocal about it, Hahaha that's entirely comical beyond belief. I was the .... errr still am the type of girl that will walk into a sex store and my head naturally bows down and I more trail at a slow pace on my own or if I am with people then I follow behind them primarily looking at my feet and not speaking very loud or if I did it primarily was mumbled and uncertain. The difference is I didn't have the confidence I have now to own up to some of my naughty little desires, or confess to what turns me on or gets me going for that matter.
Live?... Well without the shackles on I wouldn't really move or even talk besides the polite "welcome, how are you?' that a great majority if not all of you are all to familiar with from just about every cam model. When shackled it was like a whole another world then! For then I was in my play and safe space; where I was in control and had final say. It probably was the power that came from being in that position that helped me warm up the most.
One thing I think that probably surprised me the most what items it was that I was willing to do for what donation amounts. You will notice that I do try and refrain from "tokens", "tip", "pay" or assortments like that where a business transaction would more occur. I'm here for "business" but i'm not here for business or even business transaction. I am literally here to do what ever the hell I want and I am going to enjoy it an not have it feel like work! Still to this day that is exactly what I do, do with of course the in-centralization, or donations to help encourage more things for me to do, or stay on longer, or more make it about you. As long as you are having fun, then there is a really good chance that I too will be enjoying myself but if its not beneficial to both of us then that's were I start to pipe up and say something.
One thing I never understood what a darling could do would be:Â
`~coming into the room and just TROLLING, blatantly making it obvious you're just sitting there hand on your cock playing with yourself here for a free show and not helping to add to the room. OR
~coming into the room not say anything and then just leave as soon as you're greeted, or right as you get greeted....
it really is kinda creepy, not only that it is a bit on the extremely rude side of things. If I am being curtious to be kind and polite to you I would love it if the same was returned. Not only that it kinda is a bit hurtful cause one easily can take it as if you don't view them good enough or appealing to you that they're jut ugly or "disgusting" and last thing is a model feeling that way. Always has bothered me when people decide to do this .
One thing I know I was okay being more verbal about at the beginning that I am a bit more shy about now is wanting to have a plug in almost all the time, and it was featured in the donation menu for the longest time. Never really sure why it was taken out either just happened one day. The other and is still a prime featured item is Spankings!!! God did I ever and still really do enjoy being spanked. Doesn't matter if it was Pussy Spankings, Regular Spanking, Paddled Spanking, Big Paddle Spanking, or a lashing with a cane for a spank... They all are very much thoroughly enjoyed and at times I can be strongly opinionated and think that"this little brat needs her ass beat, just a spanking might be enough" though the reality of it one is never enough.
