PLZ wake me up in October, I need a day of sleeping in to process this whole month!

First, let me start off by thanking everyone who's participated in my chat room this month!

Especially the tippers! ^_^

Okay, soooo:

WHAT A MONTH! 

That's it. That's the whole post. *bdum dssst*

Well, August was supposed to be my official cum back month. I GUESS it still is.

I cammed two days in August...then had to turn in my laptop to get one of the usb-c ports fixed (the one that charges AND allows me to plug in my cam and external mic). 
I didn't turn off Find My Mac properly...so a 1 week fix turned into a 2 week one.

And then.

Upon returning, I saw that the race to MFC Social #7 had started literally 2 days after I had last cammed & turned in my laptop.

Well, if there's any reason to dive deep, it's to get the the MFC Pool with the other camgirls! 

Look, what I'm trying to get at is FUCKING THANK YOU.

THANK YOU.

I made the MFC Social 7 goal as a "Well fuck it, let's see what happens!"

Guys! We reached it! 

I'm on the waitlist for a room right now...which is alright by Me! I was on the waitlist last time I got a room too. (:

Regardless of getting a room or not....dudes we MADE the GOAL. 

THANK YOU for the tips while streaming, including the video sales that started adding up!

Let's be real here...yes?

I mentioned in my last post that I had to euthanize my Ladybird in 2020.

Well, after she was gone, I stopped paying her pet healthcare plan I had her on (She was at least 11 when she showed up to my backyard when living in Compton, she needed monthly attention as a stray who had shown up already hit by a car).

Since then, I've been in collection for the remainder because it was always the last "credit" I had to pay down. I mean...I had no dog anymore. I figured they could wait a lil.

I focused on paying down other credit lines I had, and finally I've been trying to focus on this specific charge. The thing is though...it's a collection, so they want me to pay in full.

ANYWAYS:

Pretty much, the 10,000 tkns goal is enough to go towards that collection this cumming October (tomorrow!)!!

So YEAH, I'm really really happy that we had that goal in mind because I'm not sure I would have tried so hard, so soon. 

The fact that I can pay down that balance in full means the fucking world to me. 

Remember, this is MY FIRST MONTH back camming (consistently!). 
That's what blows my fucking mind and makes tears well up in my eyes. 
I wasn't expecting to rid myself of this looming debt this early on into throwing myself back into it. 

Thank YOU, tippers!! 

This is exactly why I want to make this blog post.

You definitely helped me achieve my frivolous cam girl dream of going to Vegas for fun times.

But on a much deeper level, you're helping me to find my stability again, after falling off from tumultuous life events.   

Rambling about my thoughts here...

It's NOT easy for a Latina to grow up in Los Angeles.

Aside from the obvious shortcomings...so many Latinas here live at home with their parents into their 30s (unless they try to live with a lover, as I did lmao) in this city. Yes, even the college educated Latinas who aren't 21st Century Wh*res. It's hard for them too.

From my experience, we're not really encouraged to seek out TOO much independence because our parents are very happy to have us at home (we tend to clean and help)

So, paying off this debt feels like...freedom.

See, I had raised my credit score into the 700's. I have Good credit. This collection? Apparently takes 40% of my score. So paying it off will be SO satisfying.

A Latina in Los Angeles with PERFECT credit?? Watch out!! Here cums trouble!!

For those wondering, "What's race got to do with anything"? EVERYTHING! You love Me, Eevee, because of either my ~spicy~ personality, my ~golden~ skin, or my dark ass Frida Kahlo-esque bush!! 

Meanwhile, once I'm off cam, those same things hold much less "value" in this city of stars. 

And that's the thing. There's absolutely value in those traits...and I wouldn't understand that without camming.

More so, those valuable traits are translating to real world improvements.

I grew up not wanting to be Mexican, not wanting to tan because I thought I was only pretty when fair skinned, and of course I had to shave my entire body every single day just to "fit in". To feel worthy of positive attention. 

And here I am today...offering you all those traits that turn you on...and it's also making an enormous impact in my life. 

I guess this is more than the Social, and more than Perfect Credit (ugh, not trying to flex LOL)...it's about being able to be Myself. Speak with My accent, in My body, in My truth.

It's being able to paint my house's trim a bright ass fucking pink because 1. I want to and 2. It looks so cool on cam.

It's being able to share my silly dancing to my favorite songs..instead of feeling shy and self conscious about why they're stuck in my head. Who cares?? Make a dance!! Sing the lyrics wrong!! It's my house!! I don't mind!

Dear Reader: I'm on a weird ass fucking adventure.

I mean, I have been since before starting camming. However, camming is an outlet to what I can only describe as INTENSE EMOTIONS!!!!!

I'm sorry for the messages I missed. 

May these blog posts show that offline, I'm a woman with a rough background who's trying to heal from so many things, while also trying to pursue a genuine passion. 

You all met me when I was 20 years old. I'm willing to bet that you all saw something in Me that even I didn't at that time. 

Am I typing out these long paragraphs to the void, probably showcasing the personality that people have repeatedly told me is "Too Much"?

Hell yeah!!

LOL, yes. Yeah. 

But fuck it dudes. You've seen Me literally mature into a grown ass adult before your very eyes. 

And I WOULD NOT embrace the things I rejected if I didn't know in the back of my mind (Hmm, I make money off this, life is cool.)

Homeboys. I've been through so many moves, colleges, jobs, lovers. Every experience shaped me. I forget who I am on The journey.

Except when I see Myself standing in My room, surrounded by colors, sounds, art, pictures, etc that I love. 

That's when I start remembering, I'm going home. 

& Home is where I CAM from!! ^o^

SO. 

WHAT A MONTH.

To the familiar and new usernames alike, It's VERY nice to meet You!

Let's have fun together!!

I like you so much already ^^ if you can't tell!

Let's make the most of the fact that you can tune in directly to someone living in a city across the globe from you! (Or in your city if you're already here)

Let's exist together!!

Ahhhh!!!

^_^

Thanks again, seriously and wholeheartedly.

xoxo,

Eevee