****************************GOAL UPDATE #7****************************** April 11, 2026 It is with a heavy heart and ✱✱✱ eyes that I am posting this final update on ✱✱✱✱✱ Bear. She passed away Sunday morning on March 22nd, 2026 surrounded by lovely nurses while holding my ✱✱✱✱ as I sat on her bed beside her. It was a profound ✱✱✱✱✱✱ that has changed me as an individual. One of her final requests was that I stay with her ✱✱✱✱ until she was "cold as an ✱✱✱✱ capp" which is a cold coffee beverage we enjoyed from Tim Horton's. It took 3 hours for her ✱✱✱✱ to get cold and those 3 hours are the most unreal hours of my life. My brain trying to grasp the fact that someone who was once animated and alive is now gone from this 3D physical world. I had no previous experience seeing death happen before my eyes except my little Luca, who I held tightly with love as he crossed the rainbow bridge. In a way, he prepared me to be there while ✱✱✱✱✱ crossed to the other side. I have to believe she is still here with me because any other thought is unfathomable. I miss her every single day, especially between 7am - 7:30am which is when she passed. I have been struggling to picture my life at only 38 with no ✱✱✱✱✱ Bear even though I was much more of the parent. I miss her laugh, her smile and her hugs when I need one. She wasn't perfect but she was my ✱✱✱✱✱ Bear. She passed away exactly 4 years to the day that I packed up my life & moved to help take care of her. I had no idea where the journey would take us but I have no regrets about ✱✱✱✱✱✱✱ my life on hold to be here for her. I know that she would not have been here as long as she was without the energy I brought and healing our relationship. All of her friends tell me this and I choose to believe them. Unfortunately, ✱✱✱✱✱ was not the planning type and tended to ✱✱✱ things off "until tomorrow". Tomorrow did not come :( As the next of kin, I am responsible for all of her final paperwork, cremation, celebration of life and tying up any loose ✱✱✱✱ that may be left. I knew taking care of her while she was alive would be a lot financially but I had NO idea just how much it costs to have cremation done along with all the other details when someone passes on. That is why this goal is being left up. This is my last time asking for your help when it comes to my ✱✱✱✱✱ Bear. Her celebration of life is going to be at the ✱✱✱ of June when more people can attend and ✱✱✱✱✱ was adamant about being warm and not liking the cold. I'm renting one of her favourite venues and having live music, food and a cash ✱✱✱ so friends and family can gather to celebrate her and her life in a happy way as a "sad, somber funeral" was NOT going to happen according to ✱✱✱✱✱ Bear and her final wishes. Thank you to everyone who has been here with me on this journey. I know it wasn't easy with my wonky schedule, emotional nights, sparse social media presence and more. Please know how grateful I am that you have stuck by me through one of the lowest lows and are now here watching me rise ✱✱✱✱ up. It will not happen overnight (though I wish I could just will that to be) but I promise, I am ✱✱✱✱✱✱✱ on myself every day to get ✱✱✱✱ that sparkle ✱✱✱✱ behind my eyes and be the light you all have known me to be. Your patience is so great and I'm humbled by the fact that you are still here. Thank you from the bottom of my heart XoXoXo **************************** THE FINE PRINT **************************** This goal does NOT count for the current room topic & tips for this goal cannot be doubled for song requests, wines, or any other tip menu item. There is absolutely NO obligation to tip for this goal. Please only contribute if you can and if you want too! XoXo All goal updates can be found over in the Blog Section!