IDK HOW TO START THIS POST OMG lol There's so much I want to say about this big life decision but long story short: I need a change in my life and I have for a long time now. In the past few years I've been heavily losing motivation and excitement and have been having a hard time finding things to push myself for in life in general. If you've known me for a while you've probably heard me say something like "I never leave my house I just dont have anything I care to do". Every day for a LONG LONG time has felt the same. So with this goal I will have something big and exciting to work HARD for and look forward to again. I didn't decide to do this on a whim, I have been doing HEAVY HEAVY research into EVERYTHING I could possibly think of big AND small for every aspect of my life and future. I have good back up plans in case I can't make it work or find out that I'm wrong in thinking a big change would be good for me. I really want to try even if just for the experience, but I have high hopes. I've fully talked EVERYTHING out with my family, friends, roommate, and they have all agreed that my plan sounds really good for me and that even if it doesn't work out permanently that it would be great for me to have a big goal to work hard towards, to try for at least a few years and then continue to something new. When I visited Japan with my family in May they said they saw a very different me there that was more myself, happy, outgoing, confident, social, unafraid to be out and about, etc. I've never really felt this place I've lived for so so many years to be my home or my future. They also have been doing research with me and helping me figure the small details out and make sure I'm prepared for anything. (Yes I have planned a lot of the practical side of this goal out on my own/with family and have heavily looked into the realistic parts of moving to different cities there, the good and the bad to consider, and what would be best for my life and goals. I have been studying the language for years, still am, and will also be going to language school there as well. I'm not just like "omg what if i moved hehe" lol) I'm planning on going back to school for something that I have always been very passionate about but had no way of studying in the US and am BEYOND excited for :) *** And YES I am still going to be camming!!! :) You guys are stuck with me for a LONG LONG time hahaha. Cam is one of the few things in my life that I have always had fun with and has always made me smile through the toughest times. ALSO I may have an even easier time camming there because of the time zone :D HYPEE so pls don't think this is me quitting or planning on quitting/stepping back or ANYTHING like that because I could never imagine my life without you guys. Everything on my WHOLE Mfcshare will be going towards this goal for quite a bit before I'm able to go. I have to save a LOT, start applications for schools and visas wayyyy ahead of time, and get a LOT of my life ready for a whole new life that I'm very excited for <3 *** The crazy ridiculous amount on this goal isn't 100% accurate because it includes me buying a smol place there which is a STRETCH goal so don't judge me on how big the goal seems hahaha I would love to make that ofc but thats just me dreaming crazy The tokies I'm saving realistically is going to go toward years of school tuition, school applications, rent, deposits, flights, shipping and packing my stuff, vet visits for Yuffie, safely moving Yuffie, furniture, a trip to scope out neighborhoods/cities and housing options, set up there, and extra mystery moving costs. Thank you for reading this all <3 I appreciate the love and support so much more than I can even express and I'll be sure to update this with all the fun updates and special fun rewards I think about along the way. It's still very early in the process but this is the biggest most exciting thing I've ever wanted to do and I figure why sit around and let time pass when I can do something big and exciting in life <3 7 months left!! :) Special tippies: Love and support - 1111 tokies Night off to study more + cute study day pics - 7575 tokens 10 Hr cam stream to GRIND YAAA (I'll plan a whole fun night and you help me pick the day that works best for you <3) - 25252 tokens Anything else on mfcshare will go toward this big goal of mine and helps a lot <3