I am not 100% happy living where i live currently. I still do not know anyone from this area except for Jess (room mate/friend with benefit). I am toying with the idea of moving to Ireland and living out there permanently in my parents house & I would take all 3 cats with me & rent this house out. As you can understand, this is a huge move. I could end up not liking it out there. I need to be able to test living out there first. This is what reaching this goal would allow me to do. Reasons i think i'd be happier living in Ireland: - My mums brother's family lives just up the road. He has 4 children.. one of which is Dreamcatcher Rachel! I'd get to see them daily.. not so much Rachel as she's travelling the world right now.. but i'd get to see her siblings who i get on with! - My mums sister is over there. I love my aunty. She never married and is on her own and perhaps gets lonely. We'd definitely become closer. - I'd rent the house out: this would free up money to use to travel home to see my parents as much as i can.. flights can be as cheap as £30 with no luggage - i could do that! - I could still cam and be on onlyfans but i could also get a job. I think i'd like to go back into work (maybe).. - Space - my parents have a detached house.. i could make as much noise as I wanted.... you will definitely need to invest in some quality ear plugs :lol If the month or 3 week trial did work out and i wanted to move over there.. i would be moving over there alone. I have already explained, and made this clear, to Jess. The goal is high as i still have just 1 more credit card to pay off, i've taken into account that i might not be able to cam as much out there if my internet connection is weak. I've also taken into account a months worth of bills to sustain this house in England. I haven't got a penny to my name at the moment.. i'm -257.. but this is the best i've been in years!!! Since my tax bill was significantly lower i'm now finally able to get ahead!! I knew it was going to be tough moving into a house with hardly any furniture on my own.. and it really was. Jess' rent helps me tremendously - i am so grateful.. over the 2 years i lived here on my own i really could have done with someone renting with me sooner. But it's ok.. things are finally looking up! I can't wait to put my credit cards behind me and start on a new path. I'm aware that everything that i've said is massively over-sharing. But if you have read this to the end then you must be someone who really loves me and deserves to know whats going on in my life. You guys helped me buy a house.. i thought the destination of a house was happiness - it turns out i was wrong - it's never the destination but always the journey. It's all about progress and growth and ensuring that you never stop learning. Thank you to everyone who helped me achieve a huge investment & being able to have my 3 cats. I think that I will be happier in Ireland.. i hope so.. and this is what this goal is for and what the trial is for.. I cannot wait to get on the plane and set off on a new adventure with you guys!!! All help towards this goal is so so so appreciated. I'm trying so hard to catch up on everything i owe.. as soon as i have i can start offering more!! :) I love you guys.. thank you for being there with me throughout my incredible journey.. from Bradford, to down south and now potentially to Ireland. My ultimate goal is to end up back near my parents.. to sell this house and buy a house closer to them.. that is my ultimate dream place where i want to end up where i know full well that i will be 110% happy!!! So i have to take more baby steps to get there... moving to Ireland will be a highly useful step in helping me get home to my parents quicker!! :)