I feel like i'm in a constant place of stress and guilt. This is a bit of an odd goal to ask you guys to help me with. I never want to let any of you down. I will still be on my other social media platforms. I just feel like I really need a small break away from entertaining on cam. I feel like my creativity spark has gone out a little bit, im still stressed about taxes as I keep putting off the one thing that's really important and that is; that i communicate with my accountant and finish my bookkeeping. Having a break away will mean i can put all my focus into what needs to be done. This goal will cover the minimum i need to be able to get paid for the end of the month. The sooner we reach this goal the sooner my hiatus can start.. and i don't know if that sounds selfish. Maybe i need to put myself first in this instance. My pause from cam will just be for the end of the month. I will be back on October 1st. I just feel like i need this time to step away and refresh. Due to my regular cam time being in the evening, i spend most of my day thinking about it and im at the point where i struggle to relax. Any time that i do relax i feel this gigantic feeling of guilt. I don't think i ever actually feel 100% relaxed. I often reminisce over childhood memories and miss being a child.. miss having 0 responsibility. I also am thinking of using the time away to get counselling. This is a huge mental health break, a time to take away for myself without worrying about reaching payout etc. I will work my arse off the next few days. All help to make this goal happen as quickly as possible is BEYOND appreciated. BTW this isn't to take a complete break away from work.. i will still be working on everything i owe and still posting. When i return to cam on Oct 1st i should feel refreshed and you should see a happier me.