As some of you may noticed, there are times I see to "stare off" or suddenly seem concerned about the camera. That is because I become hyper-aware of the camera and it makes me nervous. I don't like to see myself on camera. I'm also not 100% comfortable taking my clothes off in front of people. So the combination can freak me out sometimes. Of course, some people have said “well, why do you even bother?” Excellent question. 

I've always been uncomfortable in front of a camera, however, my dream is to be an exotic entertainer. This isn't about money for me – It's actually what I want to be doing. 

I am trying to work around my anxiety and my personality disorder and my past trauma in order to become who I want to be. I appreciate the patience anyone has with me as I'm trying to build that person.