Sometimes people say to me in real life how I appear ladylike, together, even innocent. But those who have known me off MFC probably know by now that's not so much the case. Even just being on this site kind of proves the opposite. Perhaps that is why I keep coming back to this world, because in real life I know underneath that people are shocked and somewhat appalled by how sexually open and perverted I really am. In some ways that makes my friends from MFC feel more real, I can share with you what a sexually inappropriate clusterfuck of a person I really am without the same judgement as in the real world. Maybe it's also that on some level I actually just think like a stereotypical horny teenage boy, and let's be real, if you're reading this blog post, so do you.
Last weekend I went out with a group of female friends, I don't drink but they were all pretty drunk and reaching my normal level of deviant chat preferences. The conversation went from a heated discussion about how great my boobs are (apparently women just hold in the urge to point them out until that third bottle of prosecco), to a discussion about anal sex (where was the link? Don't look at me, I didn't bring it up). The general consensus was the women saying they don't like it, with fairly vivid descriptors of exactly why it doesn't feel good and confusion about how "some women" like it, when I blurted out "I fucking love it!". Well, enter a lot of giggling from the girls, and blushing on my part as I watched everyone's faces gleefully revaluating my sanity as I explained exactly why I enjoy it. And my Lord, that's not even the half of my perverted brain.
Under that vein of thought though, I have changed over the years since first coming (cumming lol) here. Or perhaps, simply grown up (apparently not that much), I still think in similar ways, but I keep far more to myself. My sexuality has never really been for sale, I loved and embraced nudity and sexuality back in my old-school camming days, but I could never perform if I weren't in the mood, which is why my streaming has been so inconsistent over the years. It is also why I am no longer offering nudity and am veering away from sexuality being the main focus of live streams. I am much shyer with my body than I once was, and I could never handle the pressure of monetising sex anyway. But I am still the sort of person who loves that there is a place that we can talk about anything, where nothing (legal) is inappropriate, and if I did want to take my top off there is no rule stopping me. I do not need to giggle and blush as I tell you that I occasionally love to be fucked in the ass (though I still might blush a little). I can share with you that I love anal enough that sometimes I even film myself with a dildo just for fun. Some of you even still have the videos as evidence!
And now... laying in bed with my top slightly unbuttoned, hard nipples stretching the fabric, thinking about being railed in the ass, I have made myself horny, so I will go and leave you with those thoughts.
Feel free to comment/discuss!
