Hey folks.  Today i want to talk about my attitude to broadcasting.  It's not a speech about reasons for choosing  this path.   It's important for me to know that i'm not just play on cam or work,  but also make people feel comfortable, create a small cozy place in web where  everyone can come and know that he or she will be welcome.  It means a lot for me to believe that i do something good.  So i'm kinda sad when i fail this mission.  When people you had nice conversations with just ignore you day by day  it's not good.  Makes me think a lot about what I do wrong and how i can  fix it.  The fact that i'm a model doesn't mean that i'm a commodity. I'm a human, a person who can feel, who can think, who can decide.  And i respect anyone, even rude people who definitely have a background story for such behavior. You can be happy to chill with me or can be bored with something that you don't like me to do. Just don't ignore me please.  

Today is the day when i given up for the first time. My mind exploded  after one hour alone in my chat, so i just closed it. Yes just an hour after weeks with tons of such hours,  but today something got broken in me and i decided that it's better to stop  showing my sad eyes even for nobody.  I felt too useless and angry at same time, and i have a rule for broadcasts: do not show sadness.   You know, i'm always sincere and even if i'd wish, my face will never allow me to lie.  And I want to bring happines to people life.  I think it's a good reason to keep getting up very early in the morning.