Welcome to The Green Bar! Welcome to a world, a world of green, purple & blue, where worries don't exist. A place we all have in our imagination. A place that we all know of, were once very familiar with, but now alas we do not know of that place anymore. That place is somewhere in the distance. But let me stop you there for a moment. Relax, breathe. Take a deep breathe in and hold it. So deep that you can feel the oxygen reaching and filling your entire lung. Now breathe out. Release. Release the feeling of stress that seems to grip almost every adult who is worrying about something odd or other. There was once upon a time when you and I were a small baby. Fear had not yet been learnt. Stress had not yet been learnt. Depression did not exist. We were perfectly vulnerable. Perfectly happy in the care of our mothers. No expectations placed upon us. No pressure to do this or be this. We were innocent, cute and at our ultimate happiest. Peace came easily back then. Our minds weren't filled with worry. We were stress free, calm and tranquil. This month 'The Green Bar' represents letting go of stress. Realising that no pain is forever. Knowing that only you can make You happy. We come into this world alone and we die alone. If you are unable to love yourself, you are not giving permission for anyone else to love you. You are sending out a signal to the universe that you are not worthy of love - and that is completely untrue. Self care is important in these areas: - Making sure you eat well - no sugary drinks - (once a month treat) - stick to water, tea or coffee (no sugar) - Working out - ensuring that you are fit is essential to your overall well being. Not only will you look great but being able to get up and run is very very healthy for yourself - working out and working on yourself like this is the ultimate form of self love and care - Learning - learning or developing a skill is crucial to keep your mind busy.. another form of self love. the more you do in terms of getting out there and being involved - the happier you will become. Once you start focusing on yourself things just fall into place. It's never any good making resolutions on January 1st as that is simply not enough motivation for change - it's simply a day in the year. Change starts today.. I am far from perfect and i face challenges every single day but i am trying so hard. I know that every day is January the 1st. I should be trying every single day. The Green Bar is a metaphor for a fantasy land that we all want to be in. This green and blue planet that we live in - quite frankly, - is a nightmare. As a teenager i often cried myself to sleep most nights, thinking about all the suffering that goes on in the world. A homeless couple shivering in the cold, a frail dog using his last bit of energy to let out another futile cry as he's trapped inside an abandoned room with no food or water left to die, a women trying her best to survive every nightmare day living with her domestic abuser unable to escape.. the list of painful scenarios that are happening in the world right this minute is horrifying. I cried myself to sleep a lot of the time as a teenager.. putting myself in the shoes of the victim, imagining what it must be like. I often thought of suicide thinking that we live in such a terrible world, why do i want to be a part of it anymore... also thinking to myself; why would i ever bring an innocent child into this cruel world. What i've learnt over the years is to... never... (and i mean it).. NEVER ever.. think.. of all of those horrible things that i just mentioned... unfortunately, there is nothing that you can do.. Absolutely nothing.. it's all going on simultaneously, and there's no way you can be in two places at once. So it's not worth thinking about. Worry leads to nothing. Worrying is absolutely pointless. Worrying is a waste of time. Never worry. What you can do; is do what you can each day.. aim for one good deed a day.. doing something for others is the greatest type of happiness you will ever experience. Nothing beats it. Helping those who can do nothing for you speaks volumes about your character. I always try to pick up a piece of rubbish, smile at a stranger, give a pound (dollar) to a homeless person, try to make conversation with an older person i do what i can.. and hey, if you're tipping models (where you can afford to) - thank you.. thank you so much! The Green Bar represents escape.. escape by being silly, escape through art... just look at all the wonderful art pictures!! They really do transport you to a different place.. and as for the Emerald City in the Wizard of Oz, wow that place is magical. It's good to relax, meditate and escape. We all need to return to that quiet place in our minds every once in a while. To turn off, shut down and hold that stillness... the stillness we had when we were babies. For every 1003 tip you can choose between green, purple or blue and i will dress accordingly for the next show (happens every 1003 tip!). I will send you some pictures of my outfit & also send you a very personal little video; telling you what i'm thinking about dressed in my green purple or blue outfit just before i start cam. The video will last for up to 3 mins.. or might go on for longer if i end up going on a tangent & of course; i'll show you what panties i'm wearing!. The Green Bar represents fantasy! So this month is all about magic, escape and fantasy! As you're all aware it's St Paddy's day Tuesday 17th!!! Of course the colour of my outfit that day is already chosen!!! I will be holding a green party to celebrate St. Paddy's!! I can't wait!