If you told me five years ago, you will build and buy your own home some day. I would say, HOW?
If you told me five years ago, there are people who will stick around for you - for better or for worse. I would wonder, WHY?
If you told me five years ago, you will  find yourself. I would cry out, WHEN?

The words I want to live my best life have echoed through me this year. In a way, it has become my little mantra. A reminder to put myself first sometimes. To do what makes me happy whenever possible. In the past, I feared letting others down by living life my own way. Now, I find comfort in vulnerability and in staying true to myself. It may have shut some doors of opportunity in this business. Yet it has ultimately opened doors of connection and a stronger sense of togetherness with those I interact with. 

Tomorrow I am moving into my brand new home. I could not be more excited to begin this fresh chapter with a fresh mind. What will the next five years hold? With such an incredible community by my side, the sky's the limit. 

You can always begin again.

I told myself and everyone around me I would never return to MyFreeCams. My personal experience with the website in the past deemed it to be a toxic environment. My negative opinions on this platform have not necessarily changed. I have had to come to terms that some problems may never be fixed, some people may never see eye-to-eye, and the dynamics will not always be ethical. Frustration consumed me when I focused on these specific flaws. I don't exactly know how or why it happened. One day I snapped out of it. Unshackled by all I viewed as wrong, finally free to make my mind right. 

Members of the community will tell me, you are difficult to keep up with - you change your name too much - jumping from platforms - I have lost interest. That all may be true. And yet through all the change, I am still myself. In fact, a better version of myself than the one you may have once known. Each change and every hiatus helped me grow into the woman I am: healthy, happy, confident, driven, forgiving, open, honest, and just a bit more grown up. 

No matter how many times the world knocks you down, dig deep, be a fighter. Begin again. 

Thank you for such an incredible birthday month. Just wow.

I did not know what to expect when I decided to come back to MFC as a non-nude gal. I could only hope people still found me interesting and entertaining regardless of the skin I show or didn't show. To those who still stop by regularly, you blow me away. Your support, your care, and everything in between is something to be admired. To those who pop in for a hi-long-time-no-see, I don't forget. People come and people go, but the impact you leave on me stays forever. So, thank you for still thinking of me too. To those who support in the background, I get it. You do not need to explain why. Anonymous and "ninja" support does not give it any less meaning. I see you and you are still a part of all this. To those who have just stopped by for one of the first times, welcome to my cozy corner of the internet. Feel free to stay awhile ♡

Because of you all, I am getting through this new year with a smile. My wish is to do the same for you.


Izzy

Three years ago today, on February 14,  I made the decision to dedicate myself to this website. Like most, I had no idea how much it would absolutely change my life. I have taken my share of breaks throughout these years. Stepping away from the website for my own mental health. Then returning again and always welcomed back with open arms. Grateful  does not seem like a strong enough word to describe how I feel towards those who still have my back after all this time. I am simply to happy to have people I can trust in this community, and to have the opportunity to connect with new people from all around the world. 

There is no doubt in my mind that this is the place I want to be. It may have taken me several years to find total comfort in my own skin, confidence within myself, and peace. But that is what a day like today is all about to me: reflection and a celebration of how far I have come. And you better believe I would not be where I am today without my supporters, my friends. You guys have been my backbone through it all. Thank you for a wild three years. ♡

Izzy

No nudity? No sexual stuff? No masturbating? What happened?

Short answer: It isn't who I am anymore.

Long answer: 
Sometimes life deals you a shit hand. Knocks you down a peg. Or in my case, hundreds of pegs, bruising some parts of me on the way down then flung me to the wolves. A domino effect of bad luck carried out for months and lingered over me for a year. I lost parts of myself during all the stress. This all sounds really stupid and dramatic to say. I have no other way of explaining it. I guess it's like when you look back on your past self and it feels as if you are reminiscing about a completely different person. 

Passion for what my audience was used to seeing from me depleted. I felt guilty for not being able to be consistent like I wanted due to what I was going through. I felt guilty if I didn't give people what they wanted, even when it went against my own comfort. There is some serious expectation to be sexual all the time. I mean, that is primarily the purpose of this platform. I totally get that. 

MFC can be full of such garbage honestly. Drama and negativity behind every corner.  You need at least five different heart-shaped sunglasses to block all the haters... lol ok that was lame. Really though, even my own actions in the past may have confused or hurt people in the community. I won't deny I have made my own mistakes too. We are always growing and hopefully learning from our faults. Something that always draws me back to MFC is the feeling of acceptance in my own chat room. It has proven to be such a positive space for me and others during some very dark times.

I know most people are here for something else. That isn't me. I am here trying to have a good time on my own terms. If you are here for that, then I appreciate ya and look forward to spending more time together <3

this got long af i am so sorry lol