If you clicked here, you probably care. This goal is also to let you know or to remind you that I really can have very bad days. My condition is not stable and I never know which mood I will wake up with tomorrow. For me, this is not a mood, but a whole reality, and I jump from one to another, where not only emotions change, but also the full perception of things, situations and myself. I have never been a social person and to this day I maximally limit contact with people because it is hard for me. When your perception of the world and ability to communicate is constantly fluctuating, it is difficult to build any relationship. I am very happy to have my best friends here, you are the best team I could hope for. And I am glad that this had been happening gradually and I had the opportunity to get used to communicating with a lot of people. I understand that this is the only place where I could find myself and I am glad that I can find here people who are on the same wavelength with me. I really love this place and yet being online is draining me mentally and I always need time to recover. Each time I go online, I need a few hours of rest after. Sometimes I have bad days when I completely close myself off from the world and every new notification on the phone throws me into a shiver. Sometimes the simplest things can be very difficult for me. It's hard for me to make contact. Because of such moments, I feel like I am often misunderstood. I was simply losing friends because it was very difficult for me to explain why I did not respond to messages or calls. But you must know I love you all very much. And the happiest days I have spent with you! If you read up to this point, you definitely care. Thank you.