If you got caught dressing up as a sissy, found out by someone you would be in big trouble, wouldn't you? You don't do it because you want to be a woman, you do it because some woman on the internet told you to! You do it for the sole purpose to be humiliated, as a punishment. It would be easier if you said you wanted to be a woman because you were born in the wrong body. That's easily understandable. Try to tell someone that you do this because you were told to rub your little clit dick in some panties. If someone walked in on you in your little panties there wouldn't be a "oh I am so sorry I should have knocked" kind of thing. You would just immediately be disowned. They walk in on you and suddenly you are a weirdo, a pervert. They will throw all kinds of accusations at you. The person that catches you would tell everyone so that everyone knows that you are a little pervert that jerks off in panties. No one can just understand this, they have to dismiss you, never speak to you again. No one will ever look at you the same again!