Working in the adult industry has been a subject that is either avoided at all cost or has been put into a category of too controversial to be explained.
I have been watching and researching the industry since I was 18 years...Nothing that I do has caused any sort of influence on my day-to-day life, but some people look at me as though I am a bitch of the town when they find out what I do. When people think of the adult industry, they think of highly sexual women with major “daddy issues” or a slutty girl “just asking for it”.
Outside of camming, I live a pretty nuclear life. Most days, I am in sweatpants with Netflix playing in the background. I am in a very committed relationship whit my 2 cats, Tomy and Kitty , food and obviusly...my bed .
No part of what I do is simple, or any way easy. I experience many personal questions; my life is completely criticized by people who only know that aspect of my life. Most days I can’t stand getting ready for work. This is a job; this isn’t just a person who wants to be naked for strangers for hours (even though there are models who do). I always am working, whether it's just picking out outfits, contests or prices. I am constantly thinking of what will make me more money that night. I deal with awful men who can be rude and degrading, with no fear or care of my feelings. I have rough days at work, just as much as anyone with a “regular job."
I’m also not saying it’s awful. I love it sometimes. I have begun to collect regulars and people who come in and honestly respect me. I feel complete empowerment in the work that I do. I control what these people see, what I do, what I say and who can watch, which is the most control I have ever had in my life. When I have had a rough day, and get online and have men find me so attractive that they’re willing to spend their money on proving how good I look immediately makes me feel so good about myself. And being someone who has many self-image issues, it’s amazing to catch a break.
I have been watching and researching the industry since I was 18 years...Nothing that I do has caused any sort of influence on my day-to-day life, but some people look at me as though I am a bitch of the town when they find out what I do. When people think of the adult industry, they think of highly sexual women with major “daddy issues” or a slutty girl “just asking for it”.
Outside of camming, I live a pretty nuclear life. Most days, I am in sweatpants with Netflix playing in the background. I am in a very committed relationship whit my 2 cats, Tomy and Kitty , food and obviusly...my bed .
No part of what I do is simple, or any way easy. I experience many personal questions; my life is completely criticized by people who only know that aspect of my life. Most days I can’t stand getting ready for work. This is a job; this isn’t just a person who wants to be naked for strangers for hours (even though there are models who do). I always am working, whether it's just picking out outfits, contests or prices. I am constantly thinking of what will make me more money that night. I deal with awful men who can be rude and degrading, with no fear or care of my feelings. I have rough days at work, just as much as anyone with a “regular job."
I’m also not saying it’s awful. I love it sometimes. I have begun to collect regulars and people who come in and honestly respect me. I feel complete empowerment in the work that I do. I control what these people see, what I do, what I say and who can watch, which is the most control I have ever had in my life. When I have had a rough day, and get online and have men find me so attractive that they’re willing to spend their money on proving how good I look immediately makes me feel so good about myself. And being someone who has many self-image issues, it’s amazing to catch a break.
Before you feel the need to judge a woman (or man) for deciding that camming or any part of the adult industry will be their source of income, remember this is a job. We work hard and struggle just as much as someone with a desk job.
Chriss